Ok... I'm working now...

School is over and I have a week behind me on my new job. It is crazy !! There is still a lot to learn and the first of the week was NUTS. Add to that, they gave us Friday off because the current sales team won a contest. I kinda got the swing of things on Thursday. All in all it has been fun and a challenge all at the same time.

I had to reduce my riding goal as I just don't have the time to learn my new job, take care of the house and spend 3 hours on my bike 4 times a week. I'll do fine with 75 miles a week instead of 125 to 150 miles per week.

My weight is staying in line with what my oncologist wants it to be. I think I'll keep my focus OK even with the new job. I guess I'll find put in November when I have my next blood test.

Well that's all that is happening in my life...

The body is sick, but thanks to Jesus the soul is alive and well...

I have a job... now what....

I got hired this week!!! I'll be working for Yellow Book USA as a sales rep. and I'm sure it is a very good fit for me. I've done outside sales before and did well. This is my first base pay plus commission job, so that will be new. I have always been on a just salary job and that is also both good and bad. My Experian Bureau Manager job would have made me a lot more if commissions were involved, but the bank I worked for, well, we we would have starved. So, I'm not really worried about doing OK on this job, it is just different.

I have 3 weeks of training in Irvine Ca. Jenni will come down for the weekend between the first and second week. Then they will fly me home between the second and third. I've also done that before so Jenni and I are OK with that plan. Then I will only travel once in a while.

The thing I'm kinda worried about is my weight and exercise program. I have focused on both of those to control the cancer. It has worked well and the cancer numbers are down and most of the other blood test show improvement. Only thing of concern is the WBC count still going down, but I digress. I will have a lot less time to exercise and I will be eating out more for 3 weeks. The hotel has a gym and I can watch what I eat. I will figure that out when I get there. Hopefully they will have a fridge and a microwave in the room. That will help, a lot!

I had a cold the first of the week and it seems to be gone after my ride today. I guess the bike riding is supporting the "good" immune cells. All in all very excited about going back to work and getting that part of my life back together.

The body is sick, but thanks to Jesus the soul is alive and well...

It worked... now comes the hard part

My Oncologist told me, at my last visit that, if I lost 30lbs and started to push the exercise I might be able to lower my cancer numbers. Well, I didn't really believe him. But I thought that I should give it the old college try. I was having problems with my feet burning and legs that had no energy reserves so I was only able to ride about 5 miles before I just couldn't go on. He put me on some meds. to fix that and it worked great. So I started to ride, like I rode years ago getting ready for a century ride. The medication allowed me to really challenge myself. So I put 100% effort into exercise & my weight loss.

I used a web site called (myfitnesspal.com) and it is great. It is free and very simple to use and it worked. Before my last blood test I had lost the weight and was riding 100 miles+ per week.

When I got my results I was shocked. All my numbers had moved closer to the normal range! My IGG went from 2400 down to 2100. My M-spike stayed the same. My kidney tests were now normal and so was my RBC. My WBC was still a little low but better than last time! By golly it seems to have worked. My oncologist was more excited than I was. He kept pointing to the test results and saying "that's the proof!".

So now what? I'm good at focusing and getting things done. I'm also very good and just letting things go and worrying about it later. This is new to me. I just need to maintain where I'm at and what I'm doing. I've never tried that before. The Dr. doesn't want me to lose any more weight. He said that could be counter productive. He also wants me to keep my exercise where it is. So I'm learning a new skill. Maintaining where I'm at now. I have to eat more, that just feels wrong after 3 months of watching and recording every bit of food that I eat. Jenni is working with me on that. Helping me plan my food intake on days before long rides or the day after. I can't put enough food in my body to cover calories used after a 50+ mile ride. The riding plan is easy as it is something I really enjoy.

So things are going great here. My goal remains the same. To use the diet and exercise to control the MM as long as possible. My Dr. is hoping for it to work well enough to get it undetectable, but cautioned me to not jump on that as it is a BIG goal to accomplish and the MM might not cooperate. I feel great and I'm more positive about the future than I have been in a long while.

I'm getting stronger each and every day!

The body is sick, but thanks to Jesus the soul is alive and well...

The life your given vs. the life you make or to be sick or strong.

We are all given things in life that we have no control of. We are male or female, white, black, Hispanic etc., we are short or tall, we are good looking or not, you get the drift. We also have things in life that happen to us that we have no control of, like injuries or sickness. We can do nothing about these so we have to just accept them and go on.

My body is sick... I have MM and at this point there is little that I can do to change that. The sickness is a daily part of my life. I get up and I have to take my pills. If I don't then my feet and legs are a mess. So, I get up and I go get my pills and start my day.

My Dr. told me that healthy people live longer. What he explained was I needed to get fit and lose the excess weight. It will do as much, if not more, than the treatments that I will have to do in the future. On my last ride, I realized what he was talking about was being strong. I can't help being sick but strong was up to me! It is a choice I have to make each and every day. To be as strong as I can, mentally, physically and spiritually. Sick or not we all have this choice each and every day. The the decision to be strong.

I know that as the cancer grows and things change that I will have to change also. I might not be able to bike ride. I might do well to just keep up some light exercise. I've come to realize that being strong doesn't mean you are the best at what you do. It just means you are the best at what you can do "NOW"!

It is easy to just throw up your arms and let the situation take over. It is harder to say, each day, that I will give the day all I have. At this point "all I have" is a lot. The cancer hasn't made my life that much different. Yes, I have peripheral neuropathy from it but it is well controlled. I'm riding 35 to 45 miles at a time 3 to 4 times a week and I'm averaging 16-17 mph doing it! I haven't been in this good of shape or this strong since leaving the Marine Corps! I've lost over 20lbs and I only have 10 more to go! I feel strong and it feels good!

My son and wife can attest that I don't have a competitive bone in my body. When I play softball, card games, board games etc. as long as everyone is having fun them I'm OK with that. I do strive to be the best I can be when it comes to a task I have in front of me. That spirit is what I tap into when I'm working on being strong. I push myself hard and in the end it is worth it.

So I will continue to push and be strong. It won't stop me from being sick but I'm NOT letting this cancer define who I am. I will live my life until it is over. I will count the miles and the pounds and stay as strong as I can. I will choose each and every day to be strong, cancer or not!

The body is sick, but thanks to Jesus the soul is alive and well...

It's done

The Giant's 5k is done. We spent the weekend in San Francisco and we all finished the run/walk. We had 3 walkers, Jenni (my wife), Jan (my niece), and me. A family friend Crystal ran the 5k. I hurt my left calf many years ago and it stops me from doing longer runs. That isn't a problem as I really love riding my bike a lot more.

Although we had a great time with the Giants run I'm not thrilled with San Francisco. I'm a country boy and a lot of the stuff in the city I just don't get. The bad smells, the noise, and the strange people. I also don't get why they tax you for everything. It was $26.00 per night for hotel tax alone! There is a health tax on food above and beyond the normal state taxes. Parking cost $45.00 per night and even that is taxed! I told Jenni we won't be spending any more time in San Francisco. When I go to UCSF we will stay out of the city and drive in.

It also isn't kid friendly. We had strollers and walked back and forth between the hotel and Giants baseball park. Every time we took our life and the lives of our grand children in our own hands! Every time we walked with the strollers we had people turn their car in front of us while we had the right of way. I guess the 5 to 10 seconds they saved waiting for us to cross made a big difference in their life! It was crazy....

It is also not kid friendly as you don't know what your going to see. We are walking back to the hotel from lunch and a group of naked men were riding their bikes down the street! Yes, you read that right...NAKED MEN! In Redding they would get arrested and would be thrown in jail for public nudity. Nobody seemed to care in San Francisco. Now, I should have expected that as in the application for the run there was a caution not to do it naked. I have done a lot of formal bike rides locally and I have never been cautioned to not ride naked! Luckily we were able to distract most of the kids but one of our young girls make the comment "I saw his bottom"! Not good; as all the kids were under 7!

In the future I'll keep these activities in smaller towns in my area. At least I can avoid most of the crazy stuff.

We raised $590.00. Not a lot but I guess it all helps.

The body is sick, but thanks to Jesus the soul is alive and well...

Life just moves on...

I haven't blogged lately, mostly because nothing new is happening here in California. My neuropathy is under control and I'm able to ride my bike and carry on with my life. I missed a dose last Friday morning because I was watching my grandchildren (3 of them) and by the afternoon it was ugly. Jenni says that she is now in control of making sure I take my pills. I guess these pills really do make a difference!

My bike riding is going well. I comfortably do 25 miles with an ave. speed of over 15 mph. I'm happy with that distance and ave. speed. I'll never go "pro" but it will keep me in shape and that's what it is all about.

My weight is slowly going down. I only have 10 lbs. to get to where my oncologist wants me to be. I have until July 15th to get there. I'm sure I can do it. I'm already down 17 lbs. and the plan continues...

I stopped taking my high blood pressure medication this morning! I've had to manage it very carefully when riding my bike. It was dropping to very low levels and I was getting weak and dizzy after my rides. The last week the weakness and dizziness was happening W/O a bike ride. I started tracking my blood pressure and it is staying in the 120/60 range all the time, even W/O the medication. I don't think any Dr. would be concerned with that range! So I'll stop taking it and just continue tracking it every few days. If it goes back up...then I'll start taking my pills again! Managing this doesn't take a rocket scientist so I feel OK doing it on my own. The exercise and weight loss is doing it's job!

Our run for MMRF is in less than 2 weeks in San Francisco. We didn't collect very much money (about $500) but I'm sure everything helps. I have 4 team members doing the run. I also have my son doing the 1/2 marathon. It includes a A's vs Giants baseball game so we should all have a very good time.

That's about all I have to go over. I feel great and I'm praying that my July MM #'s are down. I'm giving it all I have...


The body is sick, but thanks to Jesus the soul is alive and well...

The new outlook

Things are looking up here at the Ritter household. Now that my meds are all figured out and I can ride my bicycle again. I feel like I lost 10 years in age. I'm riding with new purpose and feeling great doing it. I've really struggled with having Smoldering MM. It is something you watch, not something you treat! That doesn't fit my personalty. I'm a "let's get it done right now" sort of a guy.

On that note, I was able to spend some time talking to my oncologist. He said I needed to lose 20+ pounds, below 25% BMI, and add a bunch of exercise to my week. He then explained that it really wasn't a suggestion but part of his treatment plan. Now he had my attention! A treatment plan, NOW! He explained that although he didn't have any research to back it up, he has noticed that his patients with MM do much better when they follow his advise and get fit. He had several patients where their cancer numbers went down when they got in shape and stayed there. He did caution that it might not be my experience, but if it wasn't, then I would know I gave it all I could. I totally agree with that. I want to give myself all the advantages I can in fighting this thing. I never want to look back and ask myself, what if you had just done that? There is enough confusion just picking the many treatment options available for MM patients. This is a simple treatment that I feel can only help, not hurt.

So now when I'm thinking about not getting on the bike. Going ahead and having that big burger instead of something healthy. I just think to myself, are you going to skip your treatment medications when things get hard or when they make you feel bad? I then get off my butt and get it done or eat the way I know I should! My friends say that I'm crazy that way, I make up my mind and it just happens. I guess they are right about that, I never really just sit on the fence. I make up my mind and away I go.

Jenni is fully supporting me and is tagging along. We bought some Walmart comfort style bikes and she is riding with me about 2 or 3 times a week. This morning she asked to double our normal ride tomorrow! All I can say to that is "You go girl!!!".

On a sad note: We had a friend here in Redding die this week of cancer. He had a very nice wife and 3 young boys. All I can say is how sad that makes me. This cancer thing SUCKS, not just the MM but all cancer! It doesn't really care that you have 3 boys to raise, or if you have 5 grandchildren to watch grow up. When it hits it hits.

Well enough of the downer part because I do have a good outlook on what is happening. My life is full and surrounded by wonderful people both here in Redding and in the blogisphere.

The body is sick, but thanks to Jesus the soul is alive and well...